Wednesday, June 01, 2005
in 3 days i am going to be a wife to a person whom i knew loves me very much..and of course he picks me to be his beloved wife for only god knows how long its going to be...sound nice and cant helping anxious to feel how it is going to be a wife to a person.... but lately...i dont know...may be nih lah orang kater..biler anak adam nak mendirikan sebuah masjid..syaitan pon datang menyelit dgn tujuan cuba memisahkan pasangan tersebut... eddie been so garang to me ..i dont know...may be it was me who doesnt get the idea how to differentiate betweens jokes and criticise..but he hurt me somehow...lately i also been shedding some tears... how on earth am i suppose to have my seri at the same time i have been crying to may be it just me being extra emotional...but he knows me...and he didnt even bother to actually pujuk aku....huk!! pathetic...did i have to go all through this just before my wedding day to someone who suppose to makes me happy...he loves me..i know..deep in his heart i know i am the one for him..but it just some of his behaviour i just cant tolerate..it made me sad when he thought he was trying to "tegur" me..but being sarcastic and saying it directly to my face it just not the way... he knew i cant be tegur like that but he keeps on doing it... i have been crying..i have been thinking...am i making the right choice..to be with him this soon...hmm maybe i did need a little more time for my self...a little time to understand what do we both want out of this relationship...but i know..i cant turn back now..may be it was too late to regret anything... i just has to accept him the ways he is... he is nice..caring..firm..he has all the quality i need in a man..he definitely my choice of a man should look like or dress like...i love him the way he is...i dont have to change anything about him..i love him ...but i know he's not always perfect..he do have flaws here and there..and sooner or later i am going to find that out to when i have been living with him later on...i accept him... i even give him 2nd chance when he made the biggest mistakes of all...(not going to mention it here since thinking about it make me sick!!
soothe my self...damn it...) ..he definitely change the whole perception about how i should trust him...completely.. i guess power of love do exist between us...our love is strong..its always been strong..we been throught a lot of things together...both sadness and happiness..we cried in each other arms and shoulder...we shares jokes and laughter..we did belong together.. when i look back all this time during our happy time..how did we first met...how much love we have share together...we love each other and i know i have made the right decision....till then....
Sunday, May 29, 2005
when we are together..we suppose to share everything.. good times and bad times...happiness and sadness ..somehow this thing doesnt applied for certain people. although they trust you with all their heart.. somehow they dont have the courage to even whisper about certain things such problems...etc.. with people who cares about them.... tension gak bile mender cam nih jadi kat aku..yelah...may be aku tak boleh tolong utk menyelesaikan masalah tuh..but at least janganlah sampai totally shut me out from the whole picture..it just so frustrating and especially bile dah buat cam tuh pastu nak bad mood ngan kite tak pasal2... geram sgt.. pada pendapat aku...biler aku ade problem...aku akan bercerita...pada orang yang paling aku tahu die akan memahami aku..atau pun maybe a total stranger...aku tahu at the end...aku jugak yang kene buat keputusan..orang tuh bukan boleh tolong satu ape pun...at the end its all comes back to me alone...tapi at least aku dpt release tension tuh dan takkan bad mood tak tentu pasal pada orang yg tidak berkenaan... nape lah tak semer orang berpikiran cam aku... hmm makin dekat nak kawin...neves nyer lah....bersediakah aku utk melangkah ke alam baru...masa bercinta nih memang semuanyer besh...walaupun ade juga masenyer aku dan dia bergaduh...bertekak...berselisihan faham...but in the end... we make up and compromise... aku tahu maybe die perlukan sedikit masa utk mencari ketenangan bagi dirinya...sebab tuh die tak mo layan panggilan aku mlm tadi...byk yg perlu die pikirkan... tapi aku ingin sesekali die meluahkan problem die pada aku... walaupun aku tak mampu tak tolong...at least i want to be there for him....tapi die langsung tak beri aku peluang utk dengar sekali pon..die selalu begitu...memang kecewa...padahal tak lama lagi dah nak bina hidup bersama...apakah pendapat aku ini tidak perlu didgri? ntah lah... i wish i know darling what is really in your mind...in your
heart..please let me in...how on earth i m going to understand u if u not even let me into your heart.....please let me in there.....
Name: Yanie
Nicks: aLdriNa
Age: 27
Marital Status: Happily Married
Place of Origin: Putrajaya.
Occupation: Fulltime Housewife & a mummy of 2 notty but adorable little boys ;p~
Expertise: Shopping + shopping + shopping
Contact: elle_lis(at)yahoo.com
Yahoo ID: elle_lis
[[ My Adores ]]
Food: Chocolate, Cake, Ice Cream
Drink: Lychee, Tembikai
Colour: Pink & Purple
Novelist: Ahadiat Akashah , Judith McNaught n Norhayati Berahim
[[ My WishLists ]]
Sweet cherry baby stroller
Bathing Mat for adik
Pohkong tranz collection bracelet and a pair of earring
new handbag
new sandal
Double storey link semi D 35' x 65' house
a new handphone
Akemi queen size comforter n bedding set
a new wardrobe
raplh lauren romance EDP
LG 2 doors fridge
new kitchen cabinet complete with stove n oven
[[ Music's Of the week ]]
Artist:Aizat
Song:Hanya Kau yang Mampu
[[ Past Journal ]]
● Saya dah pindah rumah!!~
● pindah rumah...
● A wake up story...
● 2 years ago...
● emotionally disturb...
● shopping part I
● happy 3rd anniversary...
● Happy MAMA day...
● Aquaria trip with nenek n auntie elle
● new mummy...new project...
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● 2004-12-05● 2005-03-13● 2005-05-08● 2005-05-29● 2005-06-19● 2005-07-24● 2005-07-31● 2005-08-14● 2005-08-21● 2005-09-04● 2005-09-11● 2005-09-18● 2005-09-25● 2005-10-09● 2005-10-16● 2005-10-23● 2005-11-06● 2005-12-11● 2006-04-09● 2006-06-18● 2006-06-25● 2007-11-11● 2007-11-18● 2007-12-02● 2007-12-09● 2008-01-13● 2008-01-20● 2008-01-27● 2008-02-03● 2008-02-10● 2008-02-17● 2008-03-16● 2008-03-30● 2008-05-04● 2008-06-01● 2008-06-08● 2008-08-10
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