[[-pieces of my heart-]]

Daddy and Mummy

Danish 3rd Birthday

Faris 1st Birthday

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

4| | |Saya dah pindah rumah!!~| | |3

Assalamualaikum semer yang masih lagi masuk dlm blogspot pepel saya nih.. saya dah ade rumah baru yer..jadi sila lawati rumah baru saya...dengan tagline baru ..
"suara dari keyboard mummy"

see you there...

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Friday, June 13, 2008

4| | |pindah rumah...| | |3

skrg nih tgh dlm process nak renovate n pindah ~~umah~~.. errr..blog layout baru...kui kui kui..credit to abang yang bakal tolong yer...muaasshhh love you honey..neway blog lama nih byk sesgt sentimental value nyer...hadiah dari abang utk aku... so aku sangat lah sayang blog template aku yang pepel nih...it is so me... tapi kekadang hidup nih perlu perubahan..dan aku pon perlukan perubahan..so setelah dua tiga kali belah bagi nak tukar takmo tukar ...last2 aku pon amik keputusan utk tukar gak lah..since abang pon dah nak tolong...hehehe..sebelum dia naik geram ngan aku better make up decision cecepat...

utk sape2 yang nak usha2 umah baru aku nih... ini link nyer.. http://yanie.bumicyber.org/

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Thursday, June 12, 2008

4| | |A wake up story...| | |3

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was
thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore..I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said
for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I did'nt have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his
exams in a months time and she did'nt want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought
she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of
pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realised she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his
life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand
surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our wedding day.. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realise that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:

I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property , the money in the bank, etc. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you,
but if you do, you just might save a marriage.

p/s: credit to kak nora....it does means a lot to me..thanks....

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

4| | |2 years ago...| | |3

2 years ago...at this very same ti me... i was in great pain of labour...having contractions after contractions..but i still feeling excited about you coming to the world...

2 years ago...as they wheeled me to the labour room..i still managed to put on lip gloss and a little bit of mascara so that i can look good the first time you see me...

2 years ago... with the painful
process and the suffering that i have to bear..for days..and today finally you decide to come out of my tummy
after all...

2 years ago... as you went out from my tummy...the pain just vanished as i saw you..i thought you are the most beautiful little thing i have ever seen in my life...

happy birthday my little darling danish..

mummy wish you all the joy and happiness around you...mummy pray for your health..longivity..prosperity...and also mummy pray that you grown up to be a good person inside and outside...a good servant to Allah...and mummy hope you have all you dream of... mummy always love danish all my life... you always be the gem of my life...

p/s: cepatnyer masa dah berlalu...huk.....

Kasih Suci

Perjalanan masih jauh harus kau tempuh
Ku di sini memerhati tanpa rasa sangsi
Jangan gentar ada sabar semai di jiwa
Ku di sini mendampingi agar kau mengerti

Berlarilah kau berlari
Terbanglah dikau terbang tinggi
Bumi yang engkau jejaki
Janganlah dikau lupai

Andai kucapai si pelangi
Akan kuserah kepadamu
Agar dapat kau mewarnai
Seluruh hidup nanti

Yang hitam harus dijauhi
Jangan disimpan dalam hati
Putihkan jiwamu dengan
Kasih suci

Kuterima dirimu dengan seadanya
Dalam suka dalam duka
Kau tetap cahaya

Ku bersyukur pada Yang Esa
Punya segala-galanya
Sederhana tapi oh sempurna

Yang hitam harus dijauhi
Jangan disimpan dalam hati
Agar dapat kau mewarnai
Seluruh hidup nanti

Putihkan jiwamu dengan
Kasih suci

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Saturday, June 07, 2008

4| | |emotionally disturb...| | |3

For the past few days..i have been having mental breakdown...feels so depressed..not to mention frustrated...but alhamdulillah..now i am feeling much better..thanks to Allah for giving me so much strength and helps me survive...because miraculously..i woke up this morning...i felt so much better...it seems that all my trouble..my pains..just went away ...i felt so grateful to be alive...to still be able to breathe in this beautiful world...to still be able to see the joyful and wonderful faces of my children...when the night before i really cried my eyes out...my heart was wrenched is tears...broken heart...painful...hurt...you name it all...i guess Allah really takes my sadness and pains away...

sometimes..not all the things we see is what it seems like...

unable to let it out in here..its definitely enough to just share how i feels...

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4| | |shopping part I| | |3

since entry pasal shopping nih byk..byk kali ..byk jenis...so aku buat dia ade part2... sejak ade anak dua orang nih...kalau kuar memane memang tak sah kalau mata and tgn tuh melilau je nak cari something for both of them... especially baju lah..cume buat mas anih aku hold dulu niat nak beli baju same corak/pattern/colour sebab adik kecik lagi... maybe another few months baru ok kot sebab sekrang pon adik dah pakai baju abang danish yang saiz dari 6-12 months...huhuhu...even 12-18 months pon dah... leh imagine tak betapa mok mok nyer adik skrg..berat dia sudah cecah 6.3kg..dan dgn bangganya hanya minum susu badan aku sahaja....hehehe.. alhamdulillah...

oh yer..since sejak dua menjak nih aku tak dpt nak lepak2 sgt depan komputer... kire entry shopping nih post dated nyer entry lah... lepas check up faris hari tuh.. ingatkan nak ajak abang gi alamanda..tapi abang plak cam tak nak..lagi pon kalau dalam hati aku dah niat memang nak shopping..better ajak nana since kalau ngan abang comfirm apa yang aku nak beli tak dapat..hehehe ..no offence abang..tapi memang tak best shopping ngan daddy...sebab sibuk suh cepat n ajak balik..ahaks!!~ kecuali lah kalau shopping time raya...shopping barang rumah ke..perabot ke...or even barang komputer..memang best sgt bawak abang sebab abang yang akan bayar semua nyer...besh2... tapi kalau shopping barang2 pompuan...barang2 baby...(bear in mind: i am very particular, choosy and fussy..nana knows better)...

so lepas gi check up harituh..ajak nana kuar..memang dari awal sebelum aku nak gi check up pon dia dah sound awal2 nak ajak kuar..cume aku memuler bajet nak gi giant nilai nih je..tapi memandangkan kaki aku macam nak jalan2 jauh sket... ajak nana gi alamanda...hehehe lama tak shopping kat sane...

so sampai nyer dlm kul 6 lebih gituh..terus ajak nana gi makan dulu since kalau shopping time perut lapar nih sangat bahaya... selain daripada menyebabkan kesukaran utk me

mbuat pilihan...kiter tend to buy things we dont need rather than spending more on what suppose on the list only... so makan kat pizza hut..nyum2.. lama tak makan pizza..last sekali aku ingat time kuar ngan nana ngak..tapi masa tuh aku tgh mak buyong lagi... teringin...hehehe...kalau ajak abang for sure dia takmo...so nana lah jadi mangsa aku .... abang danish makan satu mangkuk mushroom soup abis kat dia sorang n 3 batang breadstick...memang puas hati tengok dia makan...adik plak makan tangan...huhuhu...tabiat baru adik isap tangan dia sampai tertidow...kalau dia lapar pun jarang dia nangis...dia akan isap tgn dia tuh kalau dia bunyi sket2 tuh aku tak layan...then dia tidow...baik kan...lepas makan singgah kat baby room jap bagi adik minum susu dulu..then baru leh continue shopping ngan hati yang lapang...adik pon lena je dlm stroller dia...

muler singgah kedai kasut...lama tak beli sandal...teringin nak pakai sandal plak skrg..dulu mak buyong...memang rimas nak melaram sgt..nih tgh minat nak melaram balik... so beli la sandal..flatties je...takleh yg ade tumit2 nih...bahyer..aku dukung adik kang terjelepok sape susah...hehehe ...

pastu singgah the body shop..cari face powder...memuler confuse nak beli yang pressed powder je ke..or nak beli yg all in one je terus..tak perlu nak pakai foundation segala...sebab muler confuse ngan warna..tak silap aku aku pakai kaler 02..tapi takde plak 02

..pastu biler try 05 cam kene plak ..tapi nana pon pakai 04..so cam confuse sebab kalau ikutkan nana lagi tanned dari aku...( tak baik ckp gelap ...tanned sound better..kan nana kan...hitam2 manis sey..) then fikir pasal harga..of course lah all in one powder tuh lagi mahal..2 kali ganda harga nyer...hehehe..setelah dipikir2kan...aku amik 05 all in one tu...senang..pakai tuh je..takyah sibuk2 cari foundation lah..base la...tepek je mender tuh..cepat dan pantas gituh..plus ade SPF..tuh yg mahal sket kot...hehehe

habis kat body shop ingat nak beli baju..tapi memandangkan masa pon dah nak kul 9 mlm...cecepat lah kami semua bergerak ke carrefour plak sebab nana nak cari barang dia...aku plak teringat nak beli abang danish nyer puting...

then dpt plak sms dr abang yang dah bising tanyer big mac dia yang aku janji kan tuh mane...huhuhu.... berkias tuh...meaning.."dah tak reti2 nak balik ker??" kuang kuang kuang...dlm dok kelibut tuh...danish plak sibuk nak naik ride..so lepas puas korek duit syiling...dapat lah dia naik ride carousel tuh...memang tak sah kalau dtg ala

manda tak naik carousel nih...

habis shopping segala...nak beli big mac kat mcD..sekali diorang abis stok big mac..camne boleh abis stok pon aku tak tahu...agaknyer abis bagi free kat orang yang leh chanting big mac nyer song tuh in 4 sec kot...whatever..cume pening jap..dah ler dah janji nak beli big mac kan abang..then dah ler dah lewat lagi..huhuhu..sekali nak tak nak terpaksa ckp ngan nana singgah kedia makan memane beli nasi gorang kampung lah...hehehe ..so dgn selamba nyer sms abang balik ckp ngan dia tukar menu...kui kui kui.. mujur lah tak ngamuk abang sayang sorang tuh...

sampai rumah...danish dah puas charge bateri...adik plak merengek nak nenen dia n terus lena .... tapi puas shopping...kali nih sebab aku berjaya utk beli brg yg aku perlukan sahaja...although dekat 10 kali nana tarik aku kuar dari mothercare..aussino... poney... ahahahaha....muaashhh! luv you nana...lengkali kiter gi shopping lagi....

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Wednesday, June 04, 2008

4| | |happy 3rd anniversary...| | |3

dear abang...there's more than word to describe how i feels for all the time we had been married together...through all the ups and downs..the sadness and happiness..the goods and bads...
and all i ever wish and pray that we will always be together until the end of time...

"I'll Be"

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

[Chorus]

And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said

[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

The greatest fan of your life.
...greatest fan of your life.

p/s: mlm td mummy mimpi the day daddy n mummy first time met...so sweet n memorable...muuasshh...i always love you all my life....

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