but lately...i dont know...may be nih lah orang kater..biler anak adam nak mendirikan sebuah masjid..syaitan pon datang menyelit dgn tujuan cuba memisahkan pasangan tersebut... eddie been so garang to me ..i dont know...may be it was me who doesnt get the idea how to differentiate betweens jokes and criticise..but he hurt me somehow...lately i also been shedding some tears... how on earth am i suppose to have my seri at the same time i have been crying to
soothe my self...

may be it just me being extra emotional...but he knows me...and he didnt even bother to actually pujuk aku....huk!! pathetic...did i have to go all through this just before my wedding day to someone who suppose to makes me happy...he loves me..i know..deep in his heart i know i am the one for him..but it just some of his behaviour i just cant tolerate..it made me sad when he thought he was trying to "tegur" me..but being sarcastic and saying it directly to my face it just not the way... he knew i cant be tegur like that but he keeps on doing it...

i have been crying..i have been thinking...am i making the right choice..to be with him this soon...hmm maybe i did need a little more time for my self...a little time to understand what do we both want out of this relationship...but i know..i cant turn back now..may be it was too late to regret anything... i just has to accept him the ways he is...

he is nice..caring..firm..he has all the quality i need in a man..he definitely my choice of a man should look like or dress like...i love him the way he is...i dont have to change anything about him..i love him ...but i know he's not always perfect..he do have flaws here and there..and sooner or later i am going to find that out to when i have been living with him later on...i accept him... i even give him 2nd chance when he made the biggest mistakes of all...(not going to mention it here since thinking about it make me sick!! damn it...) ..he definitely change the whole perception about how i should trust him...completely.. i guess power of love do exist between us...our love is strong..its always been strong..we been throught a lot of things together...both sadness and happiness..we cried in each other arms and shoulder...we shares jokes and laughter..we did belong together.. when i look back all this time during our happy time..how did we first met...how much love we have share together...we love each other and i know i have made the right decision....till then....